Fireworks and songs from above  / Mommy
fireworks and music , together they played
colors and sounds filling my heart
I shed tears of sorrow, wishing you there
not being aware of your presence so clear
your song filled the air, my heart, and my soul
I felt you there with daddy and I, though I cried from such an overwhelming moment
We were together again, a family as before
happy and full of love
I now know, my sweet angel boy, that a family we always are and forever will be together
you never left us, always in our hearts is where you live
thank you sweet angel for showing mommy's heart that you are always with me wherever I go!





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Missing you  / Mommy
I sit here listening to words that bring my heart closer to where you are, look down and see the most beautiful face I've ever laid eyes on...YOU!  And I wonder, sweet baby boy, how is it I make it through each day?  I miss you so much!  The emptiness and pain is beyond words.  I am overcome with sadness as I remember those moments I cradled you in my arms.  I miss holding you.  I got so little time with you.  What I wouldn't give to hold you again, kiss your soft skin, caress your satin hair, and hold that tiny hand.  How much I would love to rub my finger along your foot to see that toe move again.  What I wouldn't give to see your eyes peer into mine.  Sometimes mommy just wants it all to end, it's just so hard.  But I know it is up to me to keep you alive.  So I continue with my life in a whole new way, trying so hard to learn this new way of life.  All for you.  I do all for you my little marshmallow!  Mommy loves you with all my heart and soul! Close

Fathers Day  / Daddy
They say happy Fathers Day ! Yes its fathers day but just doesnt seem rite without my lil hot rod next to me or in my arms.They say it gets better and i know you will help me thru this but just feel so empty  without you my beautiful son! Daddy loves you with every ounce of his soul and body! I look back and remember how my Dad looked at me proud and prideful same way i looked at you for those six days that i will forever cherish my son.You have forever opened a spot inside me that has undying love that only a father knows thank you my son . I also hope Grandpa gives you big hugs and kisses for me and that you give him plenty in return. Happy Fathers Day Dad and I Love you ! You and lil Don stay out of trouble hoping that you and lil hot rod going fishing like we used to do. Love You and miss you everyday forever in my thoughts!          Close

mothers day  / Daddy
Hi there my lil one, yesterday was mothers day mommy and i spent some time at st.michaels laying by ya wishing so much we could hold you.mom's arms ached for her little marsmallow.it doesn't seem rite you not being here because it's not! Mommy and I both love you and miss you more as the day's go by.Mommy loved the card and gift you helped me with she's so proud to be your mommy!She loves all the little signs you sent her yesterday thank you so much for helping mommy,we love love you and miss you immensley Love Daddy!      Close

1st Birthday and Angel day  / Mommy
My sweet baby boy, mommy is late with this NOT because I didn't think of you...you know that isn't the case.  It was just so hard for me to find any words to write.  I sent you many birthday wishes on your birthday and made you a Choo Choo Train cake...did you like it?  I sang Happy Birthday to you.  Did you hear mommy's voice?  I also sang You Are My Sunshine.  You are and always will be!  I love you.  I know your birthday party up in heaven was an excellent one, just wish I could've been there with you.  Wish I could see you, touch you, smell you, and hear you.  I wish mommy's arms weren't empty and longing for you like they do.  One day we will be together again.  Happy birthday sweet angel, happy birthday to you!  I cry tears of sadness because you are not here, not because you were born.  I am honored to be your mommy.  How many can say they have held an angel?  I am blessed to have you in my life.  Never will I let go of you.  Forever you will be in mommy's heart.  But I will let you fly in heaven and have fun with your angel friends, just send mommy a sign now and then.  I love you.

I went to visit you on the anniversary of your funeral and wrote the following.  This day was very hard.  I sit here staring at your grave in total disbelief, A year it's been since we first were standing here.  Tears streamed down my face as I stared at that white, rectangular box, not wanting to think of my precious son laying within.  Now I look at the same ground, one year to the date, not wanting to think of my baby boy laying all alone.  In my arms is where you should be, crying, laughing, playing, talking.  Imiss you so much, so mcuh that I still pretend, when it's quiet and I'm all alone, that inside of me is where you are.  Or I'll pick up a little stuffed animal dressed in the clothes intended for you and think of those moments when you laid so peaceful in my arms.  I remember the sadness and despair my heart and soul felt one year ago today because I still feel it.  I don't want to be visiting your grave, I want you here in my life, breathing, living.  I want to do all those things that mommies do.  Being your mommy is very hard.  I don't know how.  I am honored thought.  God must think highly of me to entrust me to mother an angel.  I miss you, my son, more than anyone has been missed.  I love you more with each passing day.  You continue to be my life, for you I keep going.  As long as I live, you live!  As long as there are people who remember you, your love and life continue on.  In my heart is where you are.  I love you Donny, my firstborn son~For you I do it ALL!

Your angel day was so very hard.  How much I didn't want to say goodbye to you on that day last year!  It broke me in two but for you I let you go.  It is for you that I do EVERYTHING!  I miss you my angel.  More than words can say.  Daddy is great, you know that.  I couldn't live without him.  He loves mommy.  He looks out for me.  We thought of you all day, just as we think of you every day.  We are always here for you.  

Love  you and sending you hugs and kisses to heaven,
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mum to angel Joel  / Debbie Blakley (mum to angel Joel )
Thinking about you all today.
Precious Donny,please send your mummy a sign today.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY  / Daddy
Happy Birthday my LiL HoT RoD !!! Friday was your birthday sure wish i could turn back time one year ago and be with you my sweet son daddy misses you so much.Mommy and I went to visit you brought you some new things and big birthday pooh bear balloon i am sure you liked them ,then mom and i sent you a race car ballon we released it and watched till it went behind the clouds on its way to you we hopwe liked it. This has been tough this week ,actually everyday is wishing i was still holding your lil fingers or rubbing your lil feet.I miss you son with every ounce of my person, every day that passes i miss you more thinking of what we would be doing taking you out and showing off my lil hot rod or as some people say down to the nipples! I Love You Son daddy cries tears of sorrow wishing you were here the only peace i get is knowing i have an angel watching out for me, and if i am lucky enough maybe someday i will be reunited with you. Love You Always Daddy!!!!  Close

HAPPY HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY SWEET DONNY  / Debbie Blakley (mum to Joel )

Happy Birthday sweet little Donny,
Have a great Celebration with all your angel friends.
Theresa,I know how hard today is as you remember your precious son's arrival into the world. I know how much he is missed.He has such a wonderful mummy.
Please know that I am thinking of you
Lots of love Debbiexxxxxx
mum to Joel 
LCDH 24.04.06 - 25.04.06 

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Little signs from above  / Mommy

I feel your tiny signs within my heart and soul.  I feel you with me so much, more than ever before.  You say hello to mommy in such simple, sweet ways.  I glance at the clock and there you are...I drink something "yummy"and in me you are once again.  I see a little decoration, and I see you playing your angel games.  I glance at the sky and view your beauty, my love.  I watch a movie and there is a line that you sent to my soul, I look at our kitty and see the sweetness of your soul.  Thank you for finding such sweet, simple ways to send my little signs from Heaven above.  Mommy loves you sweet son of mine.  Sweet child of mine...xoxoxo

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY  / Daddy
Happy Valentines Day to my lili hot rod man!! I remember as a little boy my dad always got me a card and how much he loved me .until  you came along i never understood just how much he loved me. Now i know because i love you like a father loves a son with every ounce he has and is,so to you my son I love You with everything i am and everything i hope to become.      Close

Ten month Birthday  / Mommy
Ten months ago you entered into this world, fighting with all your might.  You held on for six strong days, how wonderful those days were.  I miss you today and everyday, my heart breaks in two again as I think of all I'd be doing with you and instead tears of sadness fall.  I try to be happy for you my son, please know that you are not the cause of my pain.  You have brought such happiness to my life, I'm so proud to be your mommy.  I cry because I miss you, I cry because in my arms you will never be, I cry because I know the sweet angel that I cannot see.  But I feel you my dear and that keeps me hanging on, to hope, and believing that sometime again the joy I felt with you will return to my heart.  I love you my marshmallow, sunshine man.  Hugs and Kisses from mommy to you. Close

You were with me....my birthday wish  / Mommy
Mommy has a wish, a wish for her special day.

I thougth it in the morning and wished it all day long.

Let my son be with me, my heart cried out in pain.

I want him to be right here to bring joy to my heart.

I wished for you, my sweet son, as I blew out my birthday candles.

I missed you all day long, feeling such emptiness inside.

But as I lay down my head and still thinking of you, I realize, my 

child, you were with me all the while.

You were with me in the morning, as I opened up my eyes.

You were with me during breakfast as I missed the mess you 

should've made. 

You were with me as I was at grandma's, still feeling your absence 

so strong.

You were with me as I listened to special, lovely songs.

You were with me in the evening as daddy worked hard for me.

You were with me as I opened my gifts, wishing you had been there 

to help me.

And now you are still with me as I lay down tonight...I feel your

tiny hand touch mine and smile through my tears.

I love you sweet baby and miss you so much.  But I know my angel

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Christmas Love to our Angel Above  / Mommy And Daddy

Christmas Love to our Angel Above

Christmas Lights, decorations, and cheer
Love all around, loved ones close by....someone is missing but go on I must try!

Visit to the cemetery, wishes whispered in the wind
Tears shed, an empty, aching heart breaks in two again!

Opening gifts, such deep meaning they hold
The tears fall once again for the one who isn't here.

Songs on the radio and joy in a child's eye brings me to the saddest part in my soul.  There you should be on the floor ripping paper, laughing and giggling and causing uproar.

But you are not there.  I miss you my dear.  I can see so clearly how everything should go.  

It's off to different places, Daddy and I must part.  How sad this makes me for if you were here, this wouldn't be so.

Fake smiles I give to family and friends all around.  If only I could have you with me...those smiles would be so true.

Home again, Daddy and I.  Together we will end this Christmas night.  We will have you in our hearts and souls, always thinking of you and loving you more.  We think of what we missed out on but know how much more you have now and grateful we are that you are safe.  At peace is your soul, love fills your heart.  Joy is your spirit.  Suffering and peace is no longer your part.  

Mommy and Daddy send you Christmas wishes and love.  Please know that our tears fall from you being gone.  We hug with our hearts, kiss you with each tear, hold you with our souls, and cradle you with our love.  

Celebrate, my angel above.  Celebrate Jesus' Day.  Celebrate for the love you are given.  And after all the Celebrating has been done, send down some love to our hearts, Dear one.  

Love you Always and Forever, Mommy and Daddy.

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Lil Teacher!!!  / Donald Q. Wellman (Proud Father )
Hello there my lil hot rod it's still hard for me to belive it's been 8 months since you made your journey to your beuatiful happy place.I have to say that every day I wish that place was here with your mom and myself!I would take care of you my son as my father and mother taught me to do ,loving and cherishing every moment with you as I did those short and few days we had together forever etched in my heart and my soul as you taught me how much my father and mother loved me and how much love I have for you ,more than I ever thought possible my heart always aching for you my lil hot rod!    Love Always Your Proud Daddy.    Close

Pillow Fight Celebration  / Mommy N. Daddy
Mommy and daddy are sitting in your room, our little angel, thinking of you and wishing you a great 8 month birthday.  I am expecting to see the results of a grand pillow fight in celebration of your special day.  We miss you so much!!  I thought about you all day, wondering what it would be like if you were here.  Your daddy takes such good care of me, always by my side when I am feeling sad.  I hope you know, dear sweet one, that I am not crying to make you sad.  I only cry because I miss you so much.  My heart is filled with love for you and I am lost with how to give it to you.  It is hard to be a mommy to an angel.  I hope I am doing a good job.  I pray that the little ways I know to spread my love and your life reach up to you in heaven.  Be happy and fly high.  Have fun playing with all the other Cherubs.  I could try to list them all but the list is so long.  I know you are not alone.  There are plenty of friends and family with you.  Mommy loves you so very much.  More than I can describe.  But you know how much, don't you?  You felt it as I carried you inside me and held your hand and cradled you close to my heart.  Kisses I send to you, sweet boy.  Always mommy and daddy will be here for you.  We promise.  We love you, our little Hot Rod/Marshmallow.  You have so many nicknames.  :)  If you can, send us down some heaven dust to help brighten our hearts.  
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November Rain  / Becky Manzella (Auntie)
Hi there Flip - Flop! Yes, it is me, Auntie Becky. I know I haven't sent you a message, but we know we see each other every day.  I sit here and note the date... November 30, 2006 and it has been 8 months since you stole my heart ( and the beach!). This is a tender month for me. My dad is there with you and I have such a hard time in November for reasons you know why. I just saw your daddy and he is with your cousin Madelon and I can see in his eyes how much he misses you. We all miss you. I know you are safe and with many who love you. Follow your little heart where ever it may go and be happy! I saw you in that race car.. you had that look in your eyes the way daddy does when he is with Rachel pushing the pedal to the metal! We will always be with you and I feel your signs to us. I look forward to feeling them all. Til then, little one, I love you and look up to the sky and feel that cold November rain that warms my heart knowing its from the most precious gift of all.   Close

my three angels  / Mommy
Dear sweet child of mine...I send you my love.  I miss you so but know in my heart how happy you are.  You have had our first tiny one to keep you busy and now you have our Stardust too.  I hope the three of you are having fun with each other.  Let them know of the love I have for them...you felt it, I know you did.  They were so tiny, I just don't know how much they know about their mommy.  But I know you know.  The love I have for each of you is abundant.  I miss you my little marshmallow.  Please help mommy through this rough time.  Always and forever I will be with you.  xoxoxoxo Close

waiting... / Mommy

Seven months away from me
Seven months you've been free
I wish I could find happiness for you
but all there are is tears and sadness too
I want you in my arms again
My love to you every day I send
Baby Donny I miss you so 
I wish I could see you move your toe!!!
I know we will be together one day
But it seems forever that I must wait
Until we're together my dear sweet one
Please let me know you are having fun.

I love you my precious baby boy.  I am waiting for that special day you send your baby sibling down to mommy and daddy.  We are so anxious to have a part of you with us again.  Through their eyes, I will see you.  Love you more and more every day.  Mommy xoxoxo

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7 months old  / Mommy
Dear sweet angel, I send you my love on this very special day.  Today you are 7 months old.  I feel so far away from the time when we were together.  I hate that days continue on without you.  I want to go back 7 months ago and feel those last few kicks from you again before I started contracting steadily and then you stopped.  You must've been wondering what was going on.  So was mommy and daddy.  We miss you so much.  I would do anything to be with you again.  I know we will always be together in heart and soul but this isn't enough to heal my grieving heart.  I want to hear you cry and laugh.  I want to see you smile and frown.  I want to smell your sweet baby skin and change all your stinky diapers.  I want to touch your smooth skin of silk.  So many things I want and will never get.  I know we will be together again, though so this is what my heart hangs on to.  That you and I will be together again.  I love you, my little marshmallow.  Please know that I will always love you.  Close

Memorial Service at UofC...dedication to my baby boy  / Mommy
You Are My Sunshine

~My little ray of sunshine~

How you brought joy to our lives from the second we knew.
Hours were spent dreaming of our future as my tummy grew.
Every moment and kick brought joy to my heart. Mommy and Daddy were so excited to meet you from the very start.

~My strong sun rising to greet life~

Into the world you entered so fast.
You weren’t prepared for all your struggles, so vast.
My first glimpse of your face I’ll never forget.
Though I saw you for only seconds, I felt the candle of love was lit.
You were whisked away from the only love you knew.
How frightened I was for me and for you.

~My little sun fighting the rain clouds~

We stood by your side, adoring your every inch.
So proud were we, a perfect baby we saw, our souls became so rich.
All the tubes and wires became background sights as I clearly saw the miracle of you. I caressed your hair and touched your toe, grazed your hand and mommy’s love you felt, I know. Then Daddy and I stepped aside as we watched you being led to the copter in the sky.

~My sun up against the storm~

Together again, mommy’s so very happy to be with you.
Daddy and I stood by your side, minute to minute, hour to hour.
So proud were we to show you off to all who traveled our way.
Turns we took with all who came, letting them see you, our beautiful son.
I held your hand, played with your foot, touched your hair, sang you sweet songs. You gripped my finger and moved your tiny toes. Those memories so simple, so pure, I will treasure forever!
At the end of your struggle you opened your eyes wide and , for a brief second, looked at mommy and daddy standing at your side. You moved your legs, your arms, shoulders, and head, and then off you went to lullaby land.

~My sun rising above the storm~

Gently I cradled you, surrounding you with love.
I kissed your soft face for the very first time.
I told you I Love You again and again, never once looking up from your heavenly face.
Taking turns, Daddy and I held you close to our hearts, wanting those moments to last until eternity’s end.
Then I lifted you close to my face and sang those sweet words that I knew would engulf you in love - You Are My Sunshine, I sang to you, for your sweet ears and heart to hear.
As I sang you our song, you fought one last time and then up to heaven you flew.

~My Sunshine You Will Always Be~ Close